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How
does one “give the pain to God”? Simply by praying those words?
How does one heal? What does “healed” mean—pain doesn’t
simply go away. It is the process of healing that I do not
understand.
 aying the words is a start, but
it’s not the whole process. So, to understand this, let’s look
first at what happens when you are hurt in some way.
Hurt
Most people react to hurt by
trying to do something about it.
Physical injury often requires
some sort of physical treatment. Physical injury can also be treated, in
part, with mental imagery and prayer. A wound, for example, has to be cleaned
and bandaged and cared for with positive thoughts of its healing.
Emotional pain, however, presents
more of a problem. Many people treat emotional pain by hiding it; that is,
they do something self-gratifying—such as drink alcohol, use drugs,
have sex, gamble, watch TV or movies, eat sweets or fats, and so on—that
numbs the pain but that does nothing to heal it.
Many people also use anger and
revenge to respond to hurt.
Anger and
Revenge
We all feel hurt or irritated
when someone or something obstructs our needs or desires. Unlike the feeling
of irritation, though, anger is not truly an emotion. In its technical sense,
anger refers to the desire to “get even with”—that
is, to take revenge on—the cause of the hurt; revenge is an
act of carrying out that harm in some
way.[1]
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Because anger
is not a feeling, it is possible to “be” angry even though you
do not feel anything. This is the problem with unconscious anger:
you don’t feel the anger, so, even as it works its poison in you, you
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Revenge, therefore, can be enacted
both actively and passively. It can be enacted actively through hostility,
cursing, sarcasm, sexuality (adultery, promiscuity,
pornography, etc.), or disobedience. It can
be enacted passively also through disobedience as well as through
self-sabotage, drug or alcohol
abuse, obesity,
smoking, suicidality,
masturbation, or the
inability to achieve goals.
But, just as with hiding the
hurt, revenge does not heal the hurt either. That’s because all hurt,
at its core, is simply a reminder of your essential human
vulnerability and
helplessness. Even if you kill the person who
hurts you, you still remain vulnerable to another attack from someone else.
With all revenge, then, you might temporarily feel powerful, but the feeling
is just an illusion. No matter what you do,
you remain vulnerable to attack from anyone, anywhere.
Another
Option
 In contrast to all this
human illusion—and folly—we have another option. We can give our
pain to God. That is, when we are hurt, we don’t have to fight back,
trying to hurt others as they have hurt us. Trusting in God’s
perfect justice to protect us, we can accept all
injury quietly, peacefully, and without grumbling or
protest. Despite our injuries, we can give patience,
understanding, compassion, forbearance,
mercy, and
forgiveness
to those who hurt us, all the while praying that
they will repent their wickedness.
Transformation
Through Prayer
To heal your wounds, then, kneel
before the Crucifix and, looking to divine justice, surrender your desire
to avenge your hurts. In imitation of Him who accepted injury quietly,
peacefully, and, without grumbling or murmuring, we can say, “Lord,
I am wounded. I hurt. I am helpless. I am broken. I am vulnerable. Nothing
I can do by my own hand can protect me. Help me, for without your
mercy and protection, I will perish. Into your
hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit. Help me to continue my work in your service
despite the fact that I feel [betrayed, abandoned, unloved, insulted,
falsely accused, etc.].” And then let God do what He will to transform
your suffering into courage and perseverance—and healing graces for
those who hurt you.
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ABOUT
CHILD ABUSE |
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Many persons,
especially those who have been abused emotionally, physically, or sexually
as
children,[2]
tend to recoil from the idea of suffering, primarily
because they
unconsciously equate suffering with punishment—the
same unjust and irrational punishment they received at the hands of their
abusers. It was this unjust and irrational punishment that caused their pain
to sink down into the terrifying depths of rage and
anger, to be hidden in the dark corners of the
unconscious, shrouded in victimization.
Consequently,
this victimization can spawn either of two pernicious attitudes to life:
disobedience and false
obedience. In disobedience, a person rebels openly against
authority, using tactics such as protest;
undermining and liberalization of traditional
beliefs; and flouting of traditional moral
values. In false obedience a person gives the appearance of obedience
but instead of acting from love acts from spite: “All right. So you’re
going to treat me miserably? Well, I’ll show you! I’ll take everything
you can dish out and I’ll take it without a murmur. So
there!”
 If only you would understand
that Christ accepted all suffering willingly, not as a
victim,[3]
and that, in carrying the cross, He bore for our sake the pain of all unjust
and irrational punishment. He gave meaning to suffering. That is,
He bore it all openly and without anger for our
redemption from sin, and,
in doing so, He showed us that true love means the
willingness to bear the emotional pain of others, suffering for them in the
hope of their salvation.
If only you would
pray for others and take up your suffering as Christ did—not as
self-punishment, but as a gift of forgiveness to others—then you would
no longer need to hide your pain and you would no longer be
terrified of your own capacity for anger; then you
could listen honestly to your family and friends, to bear their anger without
flinching from it, and to help them heal their pain and take up their own
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Giving the Pain
to God
Pray, therefore, that the healing
process will happen within you. But pray for it
specifically:
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Ask God that you will be
enlightened. |
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Ask God for the courage to see
the truth of your life, especially its ugly and embarrassing resentments
and temptations. |
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Ask God for the strength to not
flinch from the pain. |
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Ask God that everything you do
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Then, all it takes to give the
pain to God is to work through four successive phases of understanding whenever
you feel hurt.
Acknowledge
the Pain
Feel the hurt, rather than push
it out of awareness. Turn to Christ, and speaking to Him as you would speak
to another person, tell Him what happened, tell Him how you feel, and ask
Him for help. If someone insults you, acknowledge to yourself and to God
what that person did to you and admit that you feel belittled; if someone
cheats you, acknowledge to yourself and to God what that person did to you
and admit that you feel manipulated and vulnerable; if someone obstructs
you, acknowledge to yourself and to God what that person did to you and admit
that you feel helpless. And so on. Admit your weakness, your
wretchedness, your
brokenness—and ask God for His
strength to carry you through despite your feelings.
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I willingly boast
of my weakness, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I am
content with weakness, with mistreatment, with distress, with persecutions
and difficulties for the sake of Christ; for when I am powerless, it is then
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—2 Corinthians 12:9b-10 |
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Mind you, this does not mean
disavowing human emotions; it’s a genuine
embracing of human emotional life in its full
reality—which leads us to the next
phase.
Relax
When you feel injured, it will
be humanly natural to want to take matters into your own hands to get revenge.
So pay attention to the fantasies of revenge
that spring up in front of you, but resist the
temptation to act on them. When someone hurts
you, resist the temptation to respond with sarcasm or arguments or hostility
or cursing. Look to divine justice, not to bitter revenge.
And when things, rather
than other persons, obstruct you—such as traffic lights that turn red
when you’re in a hurry, or things that break when you’re under
pressure to get a job done—accept it quietly and
obediently as God’s wise intervention for your
guidance.
Just say, “All right. This
is teaching me something, and in due time I will understand. Right now I
don’t know why this is happening, but since this is what You want, then
I will accept it. I trust in You in all things. But it hurts! So please give
me the strength and courage to get me through this.”
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What if it is
the devil tripping you up, rather than God intervening
for your instruction? How do you tell the difference? Well, you don’t
have to know the difference. Just accept everything gracefully as a glorious
act of obedience to God. If the devil trips you up and discovers that his
efforts result in glorifying God, he will get tired of you very quickly and
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Be
Transparent
As you acknowledge and feel the
pain, let it pass through you into Christ’s hands, like sunlight through
a clean
window.[4]
Remember that whatever anyone does to you is done to Christ
Himself.[5]
When you are mocked, Christ is mocked; when you are cheated, Christ is cheated;
when you are obstructed, Christ is obstructed. Every sin inflicted on anyone
is inflicted on Christ, and Christ alone has the power to administer true
justice for all injury. So put your wounds in His hands and
trust in His justice.
Healing is simply our return
to God in humility. There is no healing for our
brokenness except the broken bread of the Eucharist. There is no healing
except through Him who accepted all pain, quietly, peacefully, without grumbling
or murmuring—for our sake. There is no healing except in
forgiveness.
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But if you do
not
forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your
transgressions. |
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— Matthew 6:15 |
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For the judgment
is merciless to one who has not shown
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Pray
After acknowledging and feeling
the pain, resisting the temptations to revenge, and letting the pain pass
through you, then pray. To give the pain to God is to stop trying to take
matters into your own hands—by hiding your pain, by dwelling on resentments,
by protest, or by plotting revenge—and instead
to pray for those who hurt you and to pray that you will learn to approach
God in humility so as to accept the true and perfect healing He offers us.
So pray for your enlightenment—and pray for the repentance of those
who hurt you.
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 It is not always within
your power to control your feelings. You will recognize that you have
love if, after having experienced annoyance and
contradiction, you do not lose your peace, but pray for those who have made
you suffer and wish them well. |
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—as told to Saint Faustina,
Diary, 1628 |
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Pray also for those around you.
For example, if you’re stuck in a long line at the post office because
of a rude clerk, pray for the clerk and pray for the persons in line
with you who have to suffer also. Good short prayers to be repeated over
and over would be
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Father, forgive
them, they do not know what they do.
(Luke 23:34) |
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Lord Jesus
Christ, Son of God, have mercy upon me.
or
Lord Jesus, have mercy upon me.
(The Jesus Prayer) |
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Holy God, Holy
Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole
world.
(Adapted from the Trisagion prayer) |
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O Blood and
Water which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a font of Mercy for us,
I trust in You.
(Saint Faustina’s Diary, 187) |
A good longer prayer would be
the Chaplet of The Divine Mercy.
“Offer it
up!”
These three words—“Offer
it up!”—have probably done as much damage to the Catholic faith
as they have done good. In its purest sense, the expression “Offer it
up!” means the same thing as giving the pain to God. But “Offer
it up!” has also become a cliché. Everyone recognizes the words,
and many persons say them, but more often than not all they really “offer
up” to God is a shell of colorful piety filled with
self-deception.
Unless you “offer up”
your pain with genuine love it is meaningless, and
you cannot offer it up with genuine love unless you have acknowledged your
helplessness and weakness, recognized and rejected the urges to revenge that
tempt you, made the conscious and humble decision to trust in God’s
justice, and then have prayed for purification.
So beware. Real spiritual healing
is more than a cliché—it’s hard work.
It’s
Really Hard Work
It’s important to realize
here that when you feel an insult, it can actually take several hours to
calm down. Even though you acknowledge the feelings and the thoughts and
tell God that you want to pray for the person and don’t want to fall
into sin, you might still be assaulted with temptations to revenge for several
hours following the insult. It can become a huge battle, but every temptation
has to be met with the same technique: acknowledge the feelings and the
thoughts and tell God that you want to pray for the person and don’t
want to fall into sin. Over and over and over.
One additional technique I have
found that helps in such a circumstance is to say the
Jesus prayer (Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God,
have mercy upon me!) over and over as a way to prevent yourself from thinking
any other thoughts. So when you’re injured, make the initial acknowledgment;
refuse to do anything sinful, no matter how tempting; pray the Jesus prayer;
continue to refuse to do anything sinful, no matter how tempting; and continue
to pray the Jesus prayer; and keep doing it all for as long as necessary.
Eventually, the temptations will dissipate. Then give thanks to God for helping
you get through it. And give yourself credit for persevering!
Notes
1.
In all things, God desires us to treat each other with the same love He has
for us. Therefore, wanting someone to be emotionally or physically hurt removes
you from God’s service and places you in the service of the devil.
Consequently, just the thought of hurting someone is a sin—but being
a venial sin (so long as it is an inner
desire, rather than an outward act) it can be absolved with
perfect contrition. An actual act of
revenge toward another person that results in real harm is a
mortal sin, and must be absolved formally
through the Sacrament of Reconciliation.
Unrepentant sin will condemn a soul at the
Last Judgment. Note that this condemnation is a truthful assessment of the
soul’s unholy behavior, not a desire on God’s part for
revenge.
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Many persons have to struggle with the suspicion that they may have been
sexually abused in the past, and many of them will never know for sure if
any abuse actually happened. The psychological/spiritual task here is for
them to acknowledge the emotional pain they feel now, to recognize the conflicts
that the pain causes (e.g., impulses to promiscuity, pornography, masturbation,
etc.), and to then work to overcome the urge to take revenge on the world
now because of what they have suffered in the past.
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Christ was, and is, a victim in the ancient sense of the term,
which referred to an animal offered in sacrifice: as the Paschal Lamb, Christ
willingly offered Himself in sacrifice on the cross for our
salvation. Keep in mind, though, that in His
sacrifice, Christ neither lost anything nor was He cheated or duped. He did,
however, “cheat” death of its power over us, and, in that sense,
death itself was made a “victim” of His sacrifice.
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The more clean the window, the less the glass will heat up from the light.
But no window can be perfectly clean. The more dirt on the window, the more
it will heat up—that is, the more unconscious anger there is hidden
in your heart, the more emotional anguish and turmoil you will feel because
of any injury. Conversely, the more psychological work you have done to clean
out your unconscious resentments, the more confidently and gracefully you
will bear the Cross.
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“Then He will say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, you accursed,
into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. For I was hungry
and you gave Me no food, I was thirsty and you gave Me no drink, a stranger
and you gave Me no welcome, naked and you gave Me no clothing, ill and in
prison, and you did not care for Me.’ Then they will answer and say,
‘Lord, when did we see You hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked
or ill or in prison, and not minister to Your needs?’ He will answer
them, ‘Amen, I say to you, what you did not do for one of these least
ones, you did not do for Me’” (Matthew 25:41-45). Remember, too,
that, at the height of Saul’s persecution of Christians, Christ asked
him, “Why are you persecuting Me?” (Acts 9:4).
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